souled out

I lost my phone
Lost my coffee cup
Make things disappear
Then I make things up
I lost you, then I lost my way
And I make it difficult for you to say the things you want to say

I am right, right in the eye, of the storm, and I am wondering why

I’ve been watching, oh I I’ve been watching you
There are so many, so many secrets I’ve been keeping too

Open the coffin, there’s nothing inside
There are fake stars shining in the sky
And when I wake up I find I am still dreaming
In the bathtub, the salmon are teeming

Maybe I need to see something grow
See black soil, green shoots
Maybe I need to touch down
I need heavier boots

I’ve been watching, oh I I’ve been watching you
There are so many, so many secrets I’ve been keeping too

Somehow the spaces between the words grew
How long till there are no more traces of you

You found my phone, found my coffee cup
You made things appear, as if the rain fell up
Does it come down to laundry and dishes
Do these desires become impossible wish

hey there delilah

what’s it like in new york city

I’m a thousand miles away

but girl tonight you look so pretty

yes you do

time square can’t shine as bright as you

I swear it’s true

hey there delilah

don’t you worry about the distance

I’m right there if you get lonely

give this song another listen

close your eyes

listen to my voice it’s my disguise

I’m by your side

oh it"s what you do to me

oh it"s what you do to me

what you do to me…

hey there delilah

i know times are gettin’ hard

but just believe me girl

someday I’ll pay the bills with this guitar

we’ll have it good

we’ll have the life we knew we would

my word is good

hey there delilah

I’ve got so much left to say

if every simple song i wrote to you

would take your breath away

I’d write it all

even more in love with me you’d fall

we’d have it all

oh it’s what you do to me

oh it’s what you do to me..

A thousand miles seems pretty far

but they’ve got planes and trains and cars

I’d walk to you if i had no other way

our friends would all make fun of us

and we’ll just laugh along because we know

that none of them have felt this way

delilah i can promise you

that by the time that we get through

the world will never ever be the same

and you’re to blame

hey there delilah

you be good and don’t you miss me

two more years and you’ll be done with school

and i’ll be makin history like i do

you know it’s all because of you

we can do whatever we want to

hey there delilah here’s to you

this one’s for you

oh its what you do to me

oh its what you do to me

what you do to me..

by Plain White’s T

by MIdnight Hour

-i’m running away, like u did.

A song meant for us..

You could be happy and I won’t know
But you weren’t happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on lips ’till it’s madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I’d been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it’s all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don’t think, just do

More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

by Snow Patrol

I wish, i could be happy

It’s been over a month in S’pore. Ironically, i’ve gone thru quite some ‘first-times’ here.

For the first time, i learned how to swim, with my phobbia of deep water. But practice makes perfect. Believe it or not, i can swim and even dive now.

For the first time, i went for SIA interview. It was a frustrating and disappointing one. ARghh>_< ”The scar is just to remind that the past is real”.

For the first time, i had my blood test done. No ‘OUCH!’, no ‘AWW’. It ain’t that hurting as anyone else says, unexpectedly.

For the first time, i had my complete medical check-up done FOC. I’m real healthy. I guess so.

For the first time, i live my life without a social life. It’s NO LIFE. It’s killin’ me. Life without hangin’ out, movies, alcohol, and YOU ALL.. sleep before 12 every night.. Can you imagine that?? Well i do appreciate my auntie’s kindness at times and at least im livin’ a normal and healthy life now. I ain’t one who likes normal stuffs though.

So, for the first time, i grabbed the books and started readin’. Tryin’ to do somethin’ productive to kill time. Hard to believe huh?

Guess there’ll be more and more ‘first-times’ comin’ by in the future. Gotta get myself ready for that and adapted to the changes of my life. Like YOU said, this ain’t even a quarter of my life, my beautiful yet exciting life.  It’s just the very beginning of my life, just in different path, just without YOU. Cuz YOU’re just  part of my past, not part of my future. I know this for fact. And after some time, i’m a brand new me, that no one would even know me anymore.

Well, changes ain’t that bad, for the first time.

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can’t take my eyes off of you
I can’t take my eyes off you…
I can’t take my eyes…

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We’ll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower’s daughter
The pupil in denial

I can’t take my eyes off of you
I can’t take my eyes off you…
I can’t take my eyes…

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can’t take my mind off of you
I can’t take my mind off you…
My mind…my mind…
‘Til I find somebody new

by damien rice

Did the past catch you here through the dark..?

Or you’re just too used to being constrained..?

All the dreams you had last night,

Have come to an end today

There’s no rainbow after the rain this time

I’m falling apart

Carrying on still…         

Memories are heavy like the stones

Left hanging right on my lungs

And running chapter by chapter like a film through my head

From happiness to hopelessness,

From desperation to content

Happy ending was never there,

No matter how perfect the game of love was

And when we grow up we find that,

Tears can even be seen in happiness

Well, life goes on

I have my own life to live,

I gotta fight for myself

Hoping things will turn out well one day

Tell me that one day won’t take long to come…

Choices always have to be made in life

It’s cruel

Guess it’s my turn to make up my mind,

And love me for me

Cause things are gonna change so fast

Well, things did

We had the same happiness,

The same depression, together

Realized that too many disappointments we’ve taken

And the truths that hurt

Obsessions, affections, frustrations, depression, innocence…

All of a sudden, don’t matter anymore, not at all…

The same expectations we had

Ended up with the same dilemmas,

That only remind of our scars,

Of how we’d been broken down and fallen apart

I wish there’s a paradise for us on the other side of the world

And I wonder…

Will we ever learn to let go after all that we’ve been through..?

Have we ever really loathed each other and have the heart to leave everything behind..?

Can we ever find the answer from our fairy tale..?

Cause… what we had was so real and beautiful…

And precious…

Remember, in my heart I always have a place for ‘’your’’ smiling face…

         

                                                                                                               March 07

                                                                      

Now I know
That I can’t make you stay
But where’s your heart?
But where’s your heart?
But where’s your…

And I know
There’s nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change…

So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A life that’s so demanding
I get so weak
A love that’s so demanding
I can’t speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I’m out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I’m so weak
Is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A love that’s so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying) ‘Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I’d never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

‘Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)